Still Falling Apart

So I have most of my pills for now... I got coverage for a few more months... Thanks Mom!

I've technicallY graduated, but I still have some work to finish for the one class... will they revoke it if I don't finish in time? o.O Merr... I feel sick to my stomach...

I'm trying to get a job working with my friend and my loverdoo...

Good luck to me?

You don't know what it's like...

I feel insignificant
I feel nothing
I feel insignificant

I feel like nothing at all

Did you give up?
Did it get easier?

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Don't mind me. I love Econoline Crush and I've been down lately.

My medical coverage is gone. I onyl have three days or so of pills left before I start to head downhill..

I'm scared.

I am completely unreasonable and a horrible person when I don't have my pills to take. It's hard enough to try and be normal when I AM taking my pills properly.

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I remember...

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I'm a good person. I hope that can get me through this.

Mrew

I am going to smash things.. lots of things... also, sleep for a week once I'm done.

My homework is being ridiculous.

And I found an offensive but funny comic.

http://www.mildlyhotpeppers.com/comics/13/

Decaf, please.

So I've determined that anger is bad for my soul.

For some people, letting out the anger is helpful. It allows them to get rid of all the bad feelings they have, and they can go on with their lives.

In my case, it creates them. Anger likes to build up in me and stick around for a while. And it's worst when I act on the anger. Yelling at people, destroying things... it all causes pain and grief to stockpile in my heart and my head. I HATE it.

The only thing that lets it out is peace. Being wrapped in the arms of my love and completely at peace with myself and my situation. It washes my soul clean and leaves no residue of the torment behind. Of course, this is both rare and is only temporary, but it helps.

I learned how to decaffeinate coffee today.

Nomming Issues

So. It's nice to have money to get food at school... breakfast is tasty. <3

I was reading 'The Cult of Thinness' on the way to school... that book is bad for me. It's supposed to make you realize how stupid the media is and the influence from everything around women that makes them develop eating disorders, and before I started reading it I never even considered being bulimic.

o.o

Fun stuff. And I already have an eating disorder so it's not a big leap. But I'm fighting the urges. :)

Getting the Ball Rolling

Alright, self. Time to get going. Time to set aside a few minutes a day to record the goings on in my life and to post a few snippity comments.

Ahh, who am I kidding... I'm the worst procrastinator ever DX

Oh well... to any who might read this, you might find my attempts to be funny. You might not. In either case, I shall retain my pessimistic, sarcastic, cynical and unorthodox views on life and all things related. Huzzah.

Today's News: Luck is on the rise again, and I might actually graduate college this year.